It seems that i have forgotten this feeling. This feeling was so distant, almost too far until i have forgotten about it. 

But just yesterday, or more specifically a few hours back, this feeling of bringing my hopes high, sky high, before dashing my dreams all the way down, came gushing right back to me. All at once. 

No matter how hard i tried, it still happened.

Why?




Am i the problem? 

少年 - Part I

Finally caught 'That Girl in a Pinafore' yesterday.

It made me rewind my life back to more than a decade ago... 
Even though I was not born during the 新谣 period, the show brought back many, many fond memories of my own childhood years.
I still cannot believe that I am saying this; I am already (only) 20 years old?!



The growing up years of my life has been splendid!


I shall narrate one small part of my growing up years. It is an essential part of my life that I
couldn't have lived without.

Basketball

How I first got in touch with Basketball, this wonderful sport that made me gain a truckload of bosom friends, was actually introduced to me by my 14 years (and counting) buddy, Joshua.

Joshua first joined the sport as part of the school co-curriculum activity (CCA) back in GongShang Primary School in Primary 1.  He was enjoying the sport so much and pulled me along to join him when we were in Primary 2. Until today, I still remember him asking me to join Basketball, when we were both under the morning sun, 2 innocent boys standing beside the basketball court. Of course, I agreed to his request immediately. When we were young, everything also must do together right! Haha!

Anyway, it was a decision where i continued playing competitively for the next 10 years...

This was taken like when we were Primary 4/5? Can you spot me!! I am number 12!! ROFL!!! 

OMG. Cannot believe the change I had after 10 years. HAHAHA. 

After that, I continued playing in secondary school, Anglican High!

This was taken when I was in Sec 2! East Zone Champions!

When we were in Secondary 3!

When we were Double Champs in Secondary 4!  2009.

This was also the last year where I played competitive Basketball.

It was not an easy decision, to stop playing a Sport that has been close to my heart for so many years. Most of the things that happened in my life also revolves around Basketball. 

In fact, I cannot think of what I will be today if not for Basketball. It really is what made me who I am. 

Yes, Basketball definitely took up a large portion of my life. But it was the friends that made all the wonderful memories. 

Both pictures look "similar" right! 

Okay lah, not really... It's the closest i could find!

To be continued.

ENDORPHINS

Feeling absolutely FABULOUS at the moment!

Not knowing WHY. Just feel this surge of endorphin rushing through my entire body!!

What is this called?? Is this mad? Hyper-Enthusiastic right now!

WHAT HAPPENED?

1. Just finished watching episode 5 of 'Triumph in the Skies II' ?

[ It took 10 YEARS for a sequel to happen. I would be doing the show injustice if i don't watch it! ]

2. Going on a 'YOLO' Vietnam Trip with my buddy? 

[ If there is a chance, I would like to travel the world alone. How great would that be. ]

3. Just completed ALL my pre-course assignments?

[ No comments... It is akin to studying all over again. ]

4. Just came back from a sumptuous dinner with my extended family members?

[ Dinner like this will never, ever be boring! Wait a minute. How can eating ever be boring?! ]

BREATHE

Been a few years ever since i had a blog. The whole purpose of having a blog in the past will be left untouched and unsaid.

Right now, my purpose of having a blog is because i believe i have a new lease of life, and would like to document the many wonderful and amazing happenings that occur in my humble life!

Also, i feel that i am becoming more and more of a critic. I am definite that my current 'job' is playing a large portion in what i am. But i am grateful for this opportunity to learn, and grow.

OPPORTUNITY 

Notice that i use the word "Opportunity" and not "Opportunities".  

Simple: People are given only ONE chance to accomplish what they hope to do. If you fall into the lucky group, TWO. 

It is this harsh reality that made me hate those people that never ever give me the second chance. Everyday in life, you yearn for a second chance, but you can wait all you want; The world still revolves while you slowly wait.

On the contrary, I am a culprit of the above as well. I hardly provide a second chance for people I do not know, or do no care. This has also resulted in me making many wrong choices and also not enabling the person to have the chance to fully explain what he/she has to say. 

Luckily, that was all in the past. 

I am proud to say that now, I am most willing to hear peoples' second reason, even a third. This was a combination of:

1. Being denied the chance to explain my reason fully previously

2. The ill experience when you realized that the person you denied actually has a personal issue that he/she was not comfortable to share

3. When i was forgiven (But still punished) and given a second chance when i made a grave mistake

I believe in punishment. It sends a stern note to most people, and serves as a reminder for you NOT to commit the same mistake again. Thus i do not deny proper punishment is good, and in some cases, necessary. I understand most people are unwilling to live in this society where people do or conform to the right things for fear of being punished, but that, I believe, is the most efficient way to get things done, for now. I do agree that there are many other choices, such as reward. However, the effect will never be as good as the rod. 

The part about giving a second chance is something that i cherish deeply. This happened in many cases, be it in work, love or friendship. I have always been lucky that people are willing to forgive me for my mistakes. It is also with this forgiveness that made me more humble, and more receptive to people that make mistakes. Within my capabilities, when i can forgive, i will. However;

" I will forgive, but not forget ".

I am not petty. This is to serve as a timely reminder for myself not to commit the same mistake. And also, if you commit the mistake twice, it means you may have forgotten the punishment (But still able to be forgive. although less trustful now). But if you continue making the mistake over and over again, its either you have an issue, or not making the effort to change. That is when how many forgiveness would not cure.

That is why, always look out for the right opportunity, seize it, and DO NOT REGRET!

Till again! :)