Do what you want to do

Finally! The sharing is over!

It did not turn out as bad as i thought, and i guessed all the anxiety and anxiousness was uncalled for! Haha!

Yet, there was a teacher that said something very degrading, not to me, but to himself. When he heard that i was the presenter, he was like "Are we so desperate?" He quickly added "You know i'm joking right..."  Of course...I KNOW YOU ARE JOKING.  (I replied laughing -.-)

The first thought that many people may think would be, "Am i really so bad?" To the weak-minded and those with low self-esteem, i believe that comment is going to throw him or her further into the gallows, making it a thousand times harder to emerge as a stronger and confident person. Solely because the person that shot him down was none other than a teacher, which should be the last person to do so. How ironic.

I am not saying that i have high self-esteem, or am proud of my achievements thus far. But i believe i have the courage to do what i want to do, and still possess the confidence and not be put down by those mere, shallow and utterly disgusting words.  

Instead, be the confident person you want to be; Do the things you want to do; Say the things you want to say. Walk the talk, and you will have no regrets. This is what i always tell people around me, that regret is the worse feeling ever.

To the once beautiful and perfect mindset of all teachers' being wonderful angels that rescue students in distress, this incident had made me realized how crude the world is. Even in the most protected society, you will be bullied. 

Never, ever judge a book by its cover.  

Butterflies

It has been soooooooooo long since i had experienced the feelings of Butterflies in my stomach!!! And the feeling of anxiety, stress, and whatnot!

The last time i recall having so was the first day of my A levels?! And the previous time was during my Basketball Finals in secondary school, when the stadium was sardine-packed with supporters.

Is this what they call stage fright? Or am i overly-concerned!!!

Praying that the sharing later would be successful!

Presentations and presentations

I am currently rushing through my script for the presentation i will give on Wed!

I will be returning to my Junior College, TJC, to give a sharing on Leadership to the JC2 Cohort since it is Leadership week! I was on duty yesterday, and had a draft script written. After reading it just now, it is crap! So, i have to re-write again!! There are 27 slides in total, and i'm currently on slide 7... 

Time is now 2240hrs, and i presume i will end earliest by 2345hrs!

Will still have to drag myself out of bed early tomorrow morning back to work, and have to prepare for yet another presentation at 1500hrs in the afternoon! Last minute work as i was outfield the entire of last week, thus unable to get it done earlier.

I am excited, yet afraid of giving an unsatisfactory presentation on Wed...

What should i do?

Nothing ever seems right...

FRIDAY (1 Nov 13)

Headed to SWITCH by Timbre on Fri. Arrived around 6.30pm. Damn early i know, but what to do. Online reservations were all fully booked 4 days earlier...No choice but to walk-in.

Anyway, my crave for the roasted duck pizza was relished!!

It really is my top pizza! The sauce that was mixed so perfectly that i thought i was eating Peking Roast Duck... Currently salivating while looking at the picture..

Had a good meet-up with my clique as well. Everytime we meet, there will be never-ending topics to talk about. How about us all busy with our own activities, but never fail to make it for every gathering. 

Everytime someone goes overseas, he will also buy souvenirs or food back. Without fail. Really, the friendship and bond we share is ... speechless. 

We are also constantly planning holiday trips together, but it is SOOOOO difficult to fit everyone's schedule! Especially so when the girls are flying for exchange next year, and we are starting our University studies soon. 

On a side note, i'm heading to KL for a short getaway the following week! FOOD HUNT!!

Trust

Trust.

It is something earned, not given.

It is something easy to say, difficult to do.

It is something difficult to gain, easily lost.

It is something commonly preached, difficult to maintain.

It is something so important, that one can swear his life to it.

Yet, 

It is something once gone, is impossible to return.

It is true.

Trust that took decades to build up, can just disappear just by words.

There is always a lesson to be learned anywhere, and this was indeed an expensive lesson. 

One should not listen to hearsay, and be swayed by words. 

One should only believe what he sees or hears. 

Rumours kill.

This will be the one and only time an incident will happen.

Learning

Learning. 

This word is something which i hold dearly to. Anytime, anywhere, any point, i am looking for opportunities to learn. Be it from a young lad or an elderly, there will be something to learn.

Well, it is about how you want your brain to think as well. It is how to sculpture your brain, make it function the way you want it to run, to analyse, to critique every single detail. These are the things that makes you ponder. 

I always believe that a thinking person will always have the way ahead. But again, i have met a whole lot that thinks a lot, but for all the wrong reason...

I had a meeting today. It lasted 10 hours. Yes. 0800hrs to 1800hrs. 

It was the longest meeting i had attended. Nonetheless, i really learned many things from today! I can understand why some people say NS is a waste of time; Because after accomplishing their tasks, there really is nothing new or something for them to look forward to. 

Yet, for our level, there are always opportunities to learn. Attending today's meeting was an eye opener. I believe in doing your best, and extracting whatever lessons you learned and apply it elsewhere. Many life lessons can also be learned. It is through critical analysis and deep thinking though. No one teaches you. It is how you feel the issue is. 

How you control your brain, is how you want yourself to turn into.