H O L I D A Y S

Time is 2240hrs.

I will be going outfield till wednesday.

I have a stayover/drinking session on wednesday night.

I will be going Adventure Cove on Thur morning/afternoon.

I will be departing to Bangkok on Thur night.

BUT..............................................

I have a big event to conduct.

I have limited time to complete this event.

I will not be coming home less coming home on Thur to take my luggage.

I have not packed my luggage.

I AM JUST DAMN LAZY TO DO ANYTHING!!!

On another note, i am very excited for this Bangkok Trip! Mainly because i have done a fair amount of research to know where i want to visit. Also, because of the group i will be going with.

It will be my second time there.  My first experience wasn't very pleasant...

I barely begun enjoying my first day, and the night when we were back, i had a high fever. Slept in the hotel room the entire second day -________-

Also, didn't really try many of the hawker and roadside stalls. Probably it was my first time, and didn't do much research prior to that. But hey, it was an impromptu decision, and my flight was just the day after my POP, after my 24km Route March! My legs were still full of heat rashes when i boarded the plane.

Come to think of it, ALL my overseas trip during NS is always after a very strenous activity...

1. Immediately day after my POP Day (24km Route March)

2. KL Trip - Should be the day after my Commissioning Parade 

3. Jakarta Trip - Left Camp at 2am after my 3days of outfield. Caught a flight at 8am.

4. Bangkok Trip - 3days of outfield. Going Adventure Cove in the afternoon and catching a flight in the evening.

Really very tight schedule! But its always worth it! Cause after all the tough training, it really is a good break, not only to my physique, but mainly to rest my mind!

Even before embarking on my trip, I have already plans to go KL + Redang Island at the end of the year. And probably visiting Cambodia as well! Let's hope all my plans will flow through!

Alright, I am watching a food programme now! Will probably pack my bag only after the show ends. 

Will be back after my Bangkok Trip!

Remember Your True Self

Is it true that people can change overnight?

Even though many people has tell me how scary you have turned into, and what a hypocrite you became, i still choose to leave that little bit of confidence in you.

I sincerely hope that you are not what many people perceived you are. I hope that my trust can slowly build up to what it was again. 

I have learned many things from you, and respected you before.

And because of your change, i changed to suit your new style. It is not me, and i really hate this changed me.

I have since thought it through and decided to retain the old me, even if it means i am at a disadvantaged. But, this is the least i can do, to retain my moral ground and continue to be aligned to what i believed in ever since Day 1.

 If you do not change back to the real you, with moral rights and grounds, the minimum i can do is to ensure people around will continue to retain their true self, and not hurt innocent people in the midst of their selfish needs, because of your selfishness.



“You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

Who You Are

Jessie J  '' Who You Are ''

I stare at my reflection in the mirror

Why am I doing this to myself?

Losing my mind on a tiny error

I nearly left the real me on the shelf

No, no, no, no, no,no

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing

It's okay not to be okay

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

Tears don't mean you're losing

Everybody's bruising

Just be true to who you are

Who you are, who you are, who you are

Who you are, who you are, who you are

Who you are, who you are, who you are

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?

I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah

The more I try the less it's working, yeah, yeah, yeah

'Cause everything inside me screams

No, no, no, no, no

Don't lose it all in the blur of the stars

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing

It's okay not to be okay

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

But tears don't mean you're losing

Everybody's bruising

There's nothing wrong with who you are

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows like whoa

Just go and leave me alone

Real talk, real life, good luck, good night

With a smile, that's my home, that's my home, no

No, no, no, no, no

Don't lose it all in the blur of the stars

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing

It's okay not to be okay

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

Tears don't mean you're losing

Everybody's bruising

Just be true to who you are

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Mid Life Crisis

Had been watching a Taiwan food programme yesterday and heard this term "Mid Life Crisis", leading to a "Mid Life Career Switch".  

Let's take a deeper understanding and find out more about this term.

From an online article, the definition of Mid Life Crisis is as such:


'A midlife crisis is experienced between the ages of 40 and 60. It was first identified by the psychologist Carl Jung and is a normal part of the maturing process. Most people will experience some form of emotional transition during that time of life. A transition that might cause them to take stock in where they are in life and make some needed adjustments to the way they live their life.'


Okay, so why am i, at the current age of 20 and still serving NS, thinking about my life 20 years later, and moreover, talking about Mid Life Crisis? 

I have many friends who have directly or indirectly tell me about their family issues. More than often, it is due to loss of job, leading to a Mid Life Crisis. Most resorted to a career switch, which usually leads to a definite decrease in income from their last drawn cheque. Many has since changed their lifestyle, where eating out has not become as frequent, and overseas trips have greatly decreased. 

Relationships between family members will definitely be affected. Yet, there are 2 outcomes; Either for the 1. better, or for the 2. worse.

1. For the Better:

Family members continue supporting and encouraging whoever is facing a terrible issue. (Worse case scenario of not having a proper income for 1 year) This situation would be ideal, where families are always there for one another, and because of this issue; a. Have more home dinners b. More family time as most of the time all are at home c. More communication. Just looking at the reasons, people will feel the family bond will get stronger. However, the dynamics in today's world is different.

Everyone has a high expectation for themselves. This leads to them imposing this expectations on others as well, especially those that you are close with. Not that you are demanding, but you want them to have the best, by being their best.

In fact, those increased in family time may backfire, which leads me to the second outcome.

2. For the Worse:

Increased family time, if in the wrong settings, will lead to more quarrels and arguments. Because of the prolonged period seeing each other, one will begin to nit-pick on the nitty gritty issues. 

This might be the fact for everything. If you have something for a long period of time, you will feel that it is natural that you have it. Same goes for Love relationships. Sometimes it would not be ideal to see your partner everyday. Yes, if you are married in the future, you will definitely see each other. However, it is on a different scale. If you are still in a relationship, i believe that everyone still wants to have their personal space and freedom. I will try not to interfere, and i hope so otherwise. It's because of the little time you have together will you further cherish the relationship you have.

This is not off the point of the Mid-Life Crisis issue. This might be one of the outcome where you see each other more than often (Almost the entire day since one or both are jobless). And i can really imagine how difficult it is to get a job when you are more than 50yrs old. Even now, it is already very tough for myself to get a decent job. Many graduates are struggling with foreign talents, where having a MASTERS will at least earn yourself a few more seconds from the employer reading your resume. A degree would just be in a pile of the remaining applicants that are "On Hold". So imagine a 50 yr old, with no paper qualifications in the new field of work he/she may be intending to switch to, cope with the job, if he/she even manages to get it?

That is why i admire people who has the courage to do a Mid-Life Career switch, be it under dire circumstances, or because of the boredom of continuing something you did for the past few decades. Of course, a bonus will be you making it big after the switch, which is possible. 

The taiwanese male, in his 40+, made a career switch from a paid worker to being his own boss of a small road side stall, selling 生煎包.  He has since continued selling after 5 years, and is selling only one flavour till today.  He is happy with his job, his wife is supportive and helped him with the job, and both of them are happy when their customers are happy eating their product. Such is joy where no monetary value is measurable.

Hi guys!

Met my best friends ( You know my best best best friends are all split and located around the world -__- ) yesterday at Simpang Bedok! It was impromptu.  They whatsapp-ed me at 8pm said they are meeting, and expect me to be there. 

Yina Dale:  "XJ, you cab here. First time you can use money to buy precious friendship time."

HAHAHAHAH. The best jokes that never fail to make me cringe in laughter. 

Anyway, I left NeeSoon slightly after 9pm and arrived in time to meet them!

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The course I am currently attending is really mentally draining! Sometimes i wonder if it was tougher studying now, or was it tougher during A Levels. 

15mins Lecture, 2hrs to prepare for presentation, 4hrs presentation.

Nvm, at least i am learning something which is applicable. I just cannot contemplate WHY must we study A Level subjects which we will totally NOT USE AT ALL IN THE FUTURE. 

Physics, Chemistry, Maths...

Ok, it is good for knowledge and work. But...Basic understanding is needed only right? I think it is more relevant to focus and concentrate on what you wanna accomplish. If it's an accountant and you need certain algorithm to deduce formula, study what is relevant which you can apply! Otherwise, why waste plenty of precious time to be an expert in something for a short period (EXAM PERIOD), and totally forget everything, which 90% of the knowledge will not be thought through again and slowly fade away. 

Maybe its because my younger sis (studying for her A's) just asked me a simple maths question, which i cannot remember for NUTS!

That is why i am looking forward to Uni studying. In my perspective, it is definitely more focused teaching, providing you the necessary knowledge for the course that you applied. Nevertheless, the school platform only provides you knowledge. I have always been an avid believer in experience and practical skills, which can only be gained through internships or working. 

Anyway, I believe that most people have a different motivation to keep them going at different phases of life. At this current phase, whats keeping me strong going is the BANGKOK trip next month!!! Yes, decided to postpone my HANOI trip because air tickets were all sold for the period intended to travel!

Travelling is always a joyous occasion, even if i just think about it  :)